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Ah yes, I'm now in that in-between state of not pregnant and pregnant. I don't know what I am. This is unnerving and a bit annoying, to be honest. I am now at day 31 in my feminine cycle. No signs of bleeding, a long firm cervix, aversion to smells, slight bloating, forgetfulness...signs that I could be newly pregnant, or maybe not. I took a pregnancy test yesterday and it originally looked negative, and then later on I noticed a slight positive line. But it was faint. 

So, in going with the whole theme of trying to conceive this baby, since even before I came into the picture, there will be more waiting.

It's hard to just relax and trust in the process when my future (and everyone else connected to this baby) hangs in the balance. But if there was no mystery to life, I'm sure it would not really be worth living.

I'm guessing I'll only have to wait for one to four more days until I get a clear sign either way. I'm hopeful that this will be the month!